It's hard to be a retired, old, out of shape dancer who still occasionally likes to get up onstage and dance, but can't commit to training the way she used to do. I did a bit of dancing this evening and it damn near killed me! I can't help but feel lousy when I know what to do and how it should be done, but my body refuses to keep up. Tonight it was as though my feet just wouldn't move correctly.
The boy says that this is what I always say after I've been away from ballet for a while, but honestly, it hasn't been THAT long and I can usually snap back a bit faster. I think this is just what happens with age. You have to stay on top of your technique all the more if you intend to keep it. Such a drag.
I have a couple of little performances coming up in the next two weeks and I want to at least look decent. But I think the only way to build my confidence is to get to class and just keep working through all my stiffness. But getting myself to class always proves to be a challenge!
This is one of the pieces I will be performing soon. My dad recorded this years ago...I was pretty out of shape then too! I choreographed it for a documentary he was filming at the time, but now I will dance it at my Grandfather's memorial service. I think it's the perfect piece for such an event.